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due to the unfortunate event of being sick, and my bad dream- I’m awake ); and when I’m laying in bed by myself, this is when all the thinking comes to play. So come take a journey through the mind of a Kim, at 5/6am- bare with me.

I’ve come to the conclusion that once things really start to go my way and Im legitly happy- I start to push it away. Far far away. Not intentionally ofcourse , but by nature. I’ve always been the type that would rather push things/people away in fear of pain rather than risk getting hurt.

I’m not nor have I ever been perfect, not even an ounce of me. and quite frankly I don’t expect to be. I have way more insecurities, jealousy, problems, and issues that id never dare portray to the world. Cause once the world knows, thats when they can take advantage of you.

One of my biggest downfalls I’ll admit, is overthinking. I don’t like being unprepared so I tend to over think and over analyze the bits and pieces of my life in respect that if in the unfortunate event, things did happen, I’d be mentally and maybe even physically prepared.

The downside to that: MOODSWINGS.

I can go from being the happiest girl on earth to a completely different person due to the presence of a ridiculous miniscule thought that managed to conjure into my mind frame. Scenarios replay over and over, until eventually I become mad at myself for even allowing myself to over think to that extent. But hey, it happens. Shit happens- and the only thing we can do about it, is be prepared.